Coffee Dates

Don't you hate it when the people that you really desire to have a coffee date with are miles and miles away?

There are a few people in my life whom I would desire nothing more right now then to be with them. Sitting at one of those tables for two in the warm glow of a coffee shop. Oblivious to the comings and goings of other people, oblivious to the murmurs of conversations all around, oblivious to time, completely lost in conversation. And when you look in their eyes as you talk you can just feel that they truly care about and cherish you, like you do them. And in that moment it feels as though, with their encouragement and support, you could take on the world.

I miss coffee dates.

Law School

Really??

The first time this realization hit me I cried.

Yes really I did.

Oh the things in store for my future.

I just prefer not to think about it.

Law School.

Don't remind me.

At least I can drag Alyssa along with me now. ;) It makes everything better.

Life, Obstacles, and Happiness

“For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin – real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. Happiness is a journey, not a destination.” ~Souza

I want to really get this. Truly live in the moment, look for happiness here among the yuck, and not just wait for happiness as if its something to be grasped in the future.

I'm Done

I'm tired of pretty people not having to be nice to make friends. They just automatically make friends. While I on the other hand bend over backwards all the time trying to be nice and friendly, and I still struggle with making friends in this stupid place.

This is not ok.

I used to be known. I used to be liked.

I'm not asking for popularity here. Just to get out of this invisibility.

Wandering Thoughts

I'm living in Seattle
Listening to the 2nd movement of Beethoven's violin concerto in D
Drinking tea
Watching baseball
Reading for my american government and politics class

And I'm missing the person who instilled in me the love of all these things
My best friend
My role model
My #1 fan
My encourager

I hope your memory truly lives through my life.

Praise the Lord, O my soul

Praise the LORD, O my soul;

all my inmost being, praise His holy name.

Praise the LORD, O my soul,

and forget not all His benefits-

Who forgives all your sins

and heals all your diseases,

Who redeems your life from the pit

and crowns you with love and compassion,

Who satisfies your desires with good things

so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

The LORD works righteousness

and justice for all the oppressed.

He made known His ways to Moses,

His deeds to the people of Israel:

The LORD is compassionate and gracious,

slow to anger, abounding in love.

He will not always accuse,

nor will He harbor His anger forever;

He does not treat us as our sins deserve

or repay us according to our iniquities.

For as high as the heavens are above the earth,

so great is His love for those who fear Him;

As far as the east is from the west,

so far has He removed our transgressions from us.

As a father has compassion on his children,

so the LORD has compassion on those who fear Him;

For He knows how we are formed,

He remembers that we are dust.

As for man, his days are like grass,

he flourishes like a flower of the field;

The wind blows over it and it is gone,

and its place remembers it no more.

But from everlasting to everlasting

the LORD's love is with those who fear Him,

and His righteousness with their children's children-

With those who keep his covenant

and remember to obey his precepts.

The LORD has established his throne in heaven,

and his kingdom rules over all.

Praise the LORD, you His angels,

you mighty ones who do His bidding,

who obey His word.

Praise the LORD, all His heavenly hosts,

you His servants who do His will.

Praise the LORD, all His works

everywhere in His dominion.

Praise the LORD, O my soul.

~Psalm 103

There is hope for me yet.

Amen